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I know I’m a day late, but I doubt anyone reads this…I came on here to tell you all one thing…

I FIXED MY GALLERY!!!

Yeah I probably could have done that earlier if I bothered to check the FAQ page on the main page of the gallery, but oh well. Just click on any of the galleries on the right! ENJOY!

Oh yeah and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I haven’t written in a while, so I thought it was time. So I was a bit nervous for this race, I’ve been training for the NYC Marathon, not a half–so I wasn’t sure how I would do and I REALLY wanted to break my PR. I’ve been trying to break this time for almost 2 years now.

I find out a few days before that my girl Monelle was gonna run the San Jose Rock n Roll Half Marathon as well, I got excited…FINALLY someone who’s my pace and can run with me. Most of my friends run a minute or two faster than me, and every time I try and run with them I burn out quick, and have a terrible time in the end. I had it in my head to not get excited and start out slow…and that’s exactly what I did.

We started slow, kept the pace nice and easy…then at 7 I felt the knee, that piercing pain that has slowed me down for the past 4 or so training runs. I checked my posture, sucked in the abs–but it was still buggin. We stopped for a bit, then picked it back up. Got to 10 and I kept thinking, okay 3.2 left, you got this girl 30 or so minutes left.

Then it was mile 12, we finished an incline and my breathing started to change…I think Mo could tell cause she put out her hand and I grabbed it. I had to keep pushing myself because I knew how close we were to my time, then I saw my girl Janette…all I could hear is her yelling at me to keep going and going. Then she got up (with bags, and her Stich slippers) and grabbed my other hand and pulled my otherside along.

My legs felt like jello, but I knew I had to keep going. I was staring at the time, I knew I was going to break 2:22. Then we crossed the finish line at 2:20:17…and finally after almost 2 years, a new record was born.

Thanks Mo! I will have you in my head for the NYC Marathon, AND the Las Vegas Rock n Roll Half Marathon. Finish strong has a new meaning for me now.

“Time is passing. Yet, for the United States of America, there will be no forgetting September the 11th. We will remember every rescuer who died in honor. We will remember every family that lives in grief. We will remember the fire and ash, the last phone calls, the funerals of the children. “
- President George W. Bush, November 11, 2001

Sorry I haven’t updated this in a long time, however, I have updated the pictures. Just look on the Gallery list and click on the various links. My latest update is Monterey 2009. Enjoy!

Course was worse than the Nike Women’s Marathon. Inclines, hills, tunnels, more hills, and bridges. First half was so nice near the lake, but after Quest Stadium…the tunnels and hills after the stadium. Suck. I started breaking down at mile 22…but with Janette, I PR’d!!!!

Inaugural Seattle RnR Marathon

Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

–Ida Scott Taylor

Just my thoughts for the day…

For some strange reason I woke up when he would normally wake up for work (alarm didn’t go off either), then I got up at my usual time and hit snooze. I’m kinda weird…I asked for some signs, and I’m getting little ones here and there.

Today I’m in less pain. But I did talk to him yesterday…I’m asked to be strong, it’s hard to be strong–when all you want to do is be there with them. So yeah, I’m a stupid weak assed girl. I need answers, I need to talk things through or I’ll drive myself crazy. But i’ve been asked to not do my norm (by different people), no analyzing, or thinking in general. Just be. Let it all come to me.

So that’s what I’m doing. I take things day by day, and it hurts less. Yesterday I had quality time with my mom, shopping….I got me some Coach bags. Love. And Gap clothes. More love.

I decided that I’ve neglected this blog way too much, so I’m also going to write again. It’s supposed to be cathartic, so maybe this is my way of getting what I wanted to say out into the universe. I’ve been saying that lately. Say what I feel in the form of email or letter–just to get it out, get it into the universe–and come what may.

So hello again, whomever is following me. I’m a little bruised up, confused, drained, but I’m still alive. My legs hurt from the 10 miler on Saturday–but I needed to push myself to know that I can, and to erase my hurt. Be strong he asks. Be strong they ask. I’m just hoping one day it’ll hurt less…maybe he’ll be back, maybe he won’t…I’ve been standing on my own for so long–I’ll get there one day…

I keep looking at our pictures and rembering our time together. Although short, I didn’t want it to end. I only wanted you. I know I said I’ll give you what you wanted-it’s hard to stay away. My heart hurts, I’m numb, and I don’t want to feel anything anymore.

I know you need this time. You’ve been through quite a lot. I just wanted you. I still do.

you don’t get hurt.

Walls are there for a reason-just wondering when you start to let the guard down…and fully let someone in.

Happy year of the Ox!!! Whooo! Finally, it’s my year baby!

WATER OX Horoscope
Feb 6, 1913 to Jan 25, 1914
Feb 3, 1973 to Jan 22, 1974

Oxen in China are put on a pedestal. So it goes with Oxen people. Oxen are bright, peace-loving, often easy-going and trusting. But, on the other hand, they can also be stubborn, methodical, and fiercely competitive, with, shudder, fierce tempers to boot. Oxen are natural born mentors and life is filled with examples of people who have gone on to great success because of them. Mentally and physically alert to the point of genius, many Oxen belong to Mensa. They can create the most imposing structures, magnificent sculpture, and homes. They respond like poets to the beauties of nature and of solitude. Oxen are unique, they are The Flower that bursts through the crack of cement.

With Water Oxen you never have to sit around listening to boring lecturing and long-winded yada-yada. Through quiet self-assurance, they simply carry on with life, setting examples by deed, never by words. They make extraordinary leaders. They inspire others to do their best, through kind patience, knowing that even waiters finally come to those who wait. Realistic and open-minded about the foibles of others, they are rewarded with unexpected surprises when people turn around and show their best attributes. Tit for tat!. Their stable careers and “living right” give them the potential to be enormously wealthy, and they frequently are. For Oxen in general, love life is somewhat of a mystery, but immensely satisfying, interwoven very nicely with contrasts of quietude and passion, solitude and togetherness.

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They are even-tempered, home-oriented, and in need of a stable environment at work and at home. Intense, their strong positive regard for home and family can be mistaken for possessiveness. They are friendly, peaceable and accommodating, and despite their quiet nature, they do like to entertain, have parties and get involved in social activities.

Conservative and cautious, they like stability so they frown upon moving from one location to another. They take particular pride in beautifying their home with equal attention to comfort and pride. Not particularly status, they can be eloquent when so inclined. These attributes combined with the gift of inspiring confidence make them natural leaders.

The collective noun for genus bovines – cow, steer, ox, bison, etc is pronounced “Ngow” in Cantonese and “Nieu,”in Mandarin. The Ngow is the second in the 12 animal sequence. The Chinese identify these years in accordance with a complicated system of chronology dating back to 2637 B.C.

According to legend, the ox once resided in heaven as a star deity. Disturbed by man’s pitiable struggle against starvation, the great Buddha dispatched the ox to tell his subjects that if they worked unstintingly, they would receive sustenance every third day.

However, the ox became confused and informed them that their diligence would be rewarded with three meals a day. The almighty, in exasperation stripped the ox of his divinity and sent him back to earth to help man produce the necessary food. Thus the ox, once found only in heaven, became earthbound.

Twin Cities, Daily Planet

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! May this year be blessed, filled with much love, and may you have much success in all your endeavors!